The Scar, My Perdurable Defect
11th March 2005. The, Day
6.00pm
King Centre, on my way home for a shower. I stink. Been out since... morning?
6.30pm
I passed that place twice. It was just another ordinary path that I use everyday. We're on our way to WestWood. I had steak and Ice Lemon Tea (Actually I ordered Ice Cappucino).
Everything's prevalent.. another every-day to me.
Billy, Anthony and Lenny was waiting at the waterfront. We're on our way. Desmond's on his way, too. Meeting at James Brooke's Cafe/Bistro. Oh, it was 'banana-day'. There're bananas on every table.
10.30pm
Robots at Star Cineplex. - Usual.. common.
12.30am
Another happy ending.. typical ending for under-18 Disney/Pixar animated movie. We went driving around.. Passed that place again. On our way to Upper-Chawan. She's got to go home. It's late (1.00am).
1.15am
Parked outside her house, had a bit'a discussion. Thought that'll be the last time I'll see her. (leaving the day after next). Shifted 1st Gear.. going to 3rd Mile to return 'the-car'.
1.45-55am - not sure.. time didn't matter.
Number of vehicles on the road : zero.
Speedo-meter : 70 - 75 km/h
Location : Stutong Round-About
I made my turn into Jalan Simpang Tiga.. Then Laksama Cheng-Ho..
Still... everything's usual... phone was quiet...
road was quiet..
no car... wait... one... on the other lane...
wait.. another one...
in front...
clutch brake? yea... with handbrake, if time allows.
...
bang..
I woke up.. Spitted something out... oh, my tooth. The wind screen's smashed into powders. smoke coming out from the bonnet. I was tired.. wanted to sleep.
Woke up again. Yeah..
"So this is an accident.. I'm dizzy... oh.. my eyes are fine.. no my head's not.. It doesn't hurt. But.. wow.. that's a hell lot of blood... Someone's here.. Am I gonna be fine?" I questioned myself.
"Boy... you ok?". A middle-aged man in yellow T-shirt tried to open the door and assisted me out." I was let on the floor.
Everything was red. "Am I gonna Die? No, I'm not".
A lot of people surrounded me. There is a Policeman.
I woke up again. I borrowed his phone, I called 'reen to inform the ambulance, my parents and desmond.
I heard my dad... and my mom. My dad was crying. My mom asked me not to worry and she yelled.. "Where's the ambulance?!"
Yeah, It came. Everything happened quite fast. They tried to stop the blood..
I arrived at the General Hospital after a few minutes. I could talk.. actually, I talked a lot. The doctors tried to stop the blood.
"Your arterio is broken... you lost a lot of blood. Your whole forehead's damaged. We are trying our best to help you. Please co-operate with us. You'll be fine." adviced the malay-lady, oh, one of the doctors. I think.
It hurts. I don't want to explain. Because I don't want to be reminded about the pain. They couldn't increase the painkiller, my blood pressure was very low. One of the doctor removed the bandage.
God, that was the worst pain I've ever experienced in my life as a 17 year old teenage.
Another doctor tried to stitch my wound...
God, the one before wasn't the worst. THAT WAS.
I yelled... I screamed.. I shrieked..
"Are you done?" I yelled.
"It's impossible to stitch like that. Is doctor here? We'll put him into G.A." - (General Anesthetic : Any of various anesthetic drugs, usually administered by inhalation or intravenous injection, that produce general anesthesia)
An Indian doctor visited me. He said I still look handsome. I'll be fine. He asked about my SPM results.. while doctors took my blood. And I called for My parents and Desmond. Caryn came in as well.. I can see their faces... they tried to smile but I see can see the real one behind 'em. Mom's worried sick. She's crying.
The doctor said they'll put a tube into my penis.. into my bladder. It'll be uncomfortable.
"Do it when I'm in G.A." I said.
Yeap.. Doctor's there, I was pushed to the Operating Theater. 4 Surgeons and 1 nurse, i think. It was 4.10am... that was what the Indian doctor told me.. He pushed me into 'the-place' and told me I'll be fine. His name's VJ.. hehe.. They gassed me... Things turned around. I was asleep. But It was my worst nightmare. I experienced the accident over-and-over again. I wanted to wake up but I couldn't.
"You feel like vomitting but you're not.... you're just dizzy." I heard someone saying. I can't move my body. Only my eyes.
Everything's just worst... I feel pain all over.. I vomitted several times. Each time I felt better after.
All my relatives were there.. I saw her again in the lift.. she smiled to me. I had 54 stitches over my forehead.... my tooth is gone.. the rest, not stable. 11 injection holes all over my right arm. Dextrose infusion on my left.... and OCD.. a tube in my penis... God it hurts.
Today
Well.. those were the days.. I'm sitting at home now... removed my stitches... seen the dentist... and I'm watching TV with my parents now. I feel a lot better. And I realised a lot of things. Especially those who love me.
I look terrible right now. Hope everything will be fine... and God, please let me enjoy full recovery as soon as possible.
Thanks Desmond... for being there all the time for me.
6.00pm
King Centre, on my way home for a shower. I stink. Been out since... morning?
6.30pm
I passed that place twice. It was just another ordinary path that I use everyday. We're on our way to WestWood. I had steak and Ice Lemon Tea (Actually I ordered Ice Cappucino).
Everything's prevalent.. another every-day to me.
Billy, Anthony and Lenny was waiting at the waterfront. We're on our way. Desmond's on his way, too. Meeting at James Brooke's Cafe/Bistro. Oh, it was 'banana-day'. There're bananas on every table.
10.30pm
Robots at Star Cineplex. - Usual.. common.
12.30am
Another happy ending.. typical ending for under-18 Disney/Pixar animated movie. We went driving around.. Passed that place again. On our way to Upper-Chawan. She's got to go home. It's late (1.00am).
1.15am
Parked outside her house, had a bit'a discussion. Thought that'll be the last time I'll see her. (leaving the day after next). Shifted 1st Gear.. going to 3rd Mile to return 'the-car'.
1.45-55am - not sure.. time didn't matter.
Number of vehicles on the road : zero.
Speedo-meter : 70 - 75 km/h
Location : Stutong Round-About
I made my turn into Jalan Simpang Tiga.. Then Laksama Cheng-Ho..
Still... everything's usual... phone was quiet...
road was quiet..
no car... wait... one... on the other lane...
wait.. another one...
in front...
clutch brake? yea... with handbrake, if time allows.
...
bang..
I woke up.. Spitted something out... oh, my tooth. The wind screen's smashed into powders. smoke coming out from the bonnet. I was tired.. wanted to sleep.
Woke up again. Yeah..
"So this is an accident.. I'm dizzy... oh.. my eyes are fine.. no my head's not.. It doesn't hurt. But.. wow.. that's a hell lot of blood... Someone's here.. Am I gonna be fine?" I questioned myself.
"Boy... you ok?". A middle-aged man in yellow T-shirt tried to open the door and assisted me out." I was let on the floor.
Everything was red. "Am I gonna Die? No, I'm not".
A lot of people surrounded me. There is a Policeman.
I woke up again. I borrowed his phone, I called 'reen to inform the ambulance, my parents and desmond.
I heard my dad... and my mom. My dad was crying. My mom asked me not to worry and she yelled.. "Where's the ambulance?!"
Yeah, It came. Everything happened quite fast. They tried to stop the blood..
I arrived at the General Hospital after a few minutes. I could talk.. actually, I talked a lot. The doctors tried to stop the blood.
"Your arterio is broken... you lost a lot of blood. Your whole forehead's damaged. We are trying our best to help you. Please co-operate with us. You'll be fine." adviced the malay-lady, oh, one of the doctors. I think.
It hurts. I don't want to explain. Because I don't want to be reminded about the pain. They couldn't increase the painkiller, my blood pressure was very low. One of the doctor removed the bandage.
God, that was the worst pain I've ever experienced in my life as a 17 year old teenage.
Another doctor tried to stitch my wound...
God, the one before wasn't the worst. THAT WAS.
I yelled... I screamed.. I shrieked..
"Are you done?" I yelled.
"It's impossible to stitch like that. Is doctor here? We'll put him into G.A." - (General Anesthetic : Any of various anesthetic drugs, usually administered by inhalation or intravenous injection, that produce general anesthesia)
An Indian doctor visited me. He said I still look handsome. I'll be fine. He asked about my SPM results.. while doctors took my blood. And I called for My parents and Desmond. Caryn came in as well.. I can see their faces... they tried to smile but I see can see the real one behind 'em. Mom's worried sick. She's crying.
The doctor said they'll put a tube into my penis.. into my bladder. It'll be uncomfortable.
"Do it when I'm in G.A." I said.
Yeap.. Doctor's there, I was pushed to the Operating Theater. 4 Surgeons and 1 nurse, i think. It was 4.10am... that was what the Indian doctor told me.. He pushed me into 'the-place' and told me I'll be fine. His name's VJ.. hehe.. They gassed me... Things turned around. I was asleep. But It was my worst nightmare. I experienced the accident over-and-over again. I wanted to wake up but I couldn't.
"You feel like vomitting but you're not.... you're just dizzy." I heard someone saying. I can't move my body. Only my eyes.
Everything's just worst... I feel pain all over.. I vomitted several times. Each time I felt better after.
All my relatives were there.. I saw her again in the lift.. she smiled to me. I had 54 stitches over my forehead.... my tooth is gone.. the rest, not stable. 11 injection holes all over my right arm. Dextrose infusion on my left.... and OCD.. a tube in my penis... God it hurts.
Today
Well.. those were the days.. I'm sitting at home now... removed my stitches... seen the dentist... and I'm watching TV with my parents now. I feel a lot better. And I realised a lot of things. Especially those who love me.
I look terrible right now. Hope everything will be fine... and God, please let me enjoy full recovery as soon as possible.
Thanks Desmond... for being there all the time for me.
posted by RuffleSeed at 9:00 PM
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